My mom named that cute little kitten, Honey. When I was a child we had a little yellow kitten that mom named Honey Bee .. Honey Bee died in an accident and my mom was broken hearted.
Years later .. about a year ago .. my mom got this comical kitten ... and named her Honey.
Because that was Moms endearment .. her children and her pets .. we were all Honey.
And now she is mine ... Honey .. silly, comical, sweet, huge Honey.
I don't know how I did it , but I just looked in the mirror, the full length mirror and a woman from the 1950's was looking back at me.
She has long blonde hair to the shoulders, that is sort of doing this bouffant flip thing ...
I know she didn't mean to get that look, there are days that her hair has a mind of its own.
Today was one of those days ... Mary Tyler Moore with blonde hair might sum it up.
The weight gain, to ease off the big weight loss ( that was not needed in the first place) has been coming along but I think I am going to stop where I am and not think about it anymore.
The more you think about how much/little you weigh , the more anxious you can get about eating .. too much, too little .. don't think about it.
Eat right, eat when it is mealtime and not too much ... the end.
I have been told to go shopping, not to worry about anything.
I won't go shopping but I admit to having a tiny spree online with Sephora.com and Cuisinart.
Yeah, Makeup and Gold Coffee Filters..... I am going wild.
The cats are all at ease .. we all have settled on Who goes Where on the bed at night and during the day .We all have our spots that we like best.
I get the most spots and sometimes someone has to move over and let me in ... that is the way it is at my house ..
Minette is still my darling .. she is such a Good Girl and so sweet .
Merlin breaks my heart every day with his sweetness and age , he is so very dear to me.
Honey is the baby, even though she is the largest, she is the youngest and has attached herself to me.
I am in my chair at my desk.
She is on the antique toy chest under the window, next to my desk .. I put a blanket on the chest .. you never know when a kitty will drop in for a nap.
I am making plans for my future, this feels like I am in a lovely nest .. watching my days drift by .. my life is drifting ... I want to do more than drift .. I want to see more than the cats every day ..
I want to do something more .. so plans are cooking .. thoughts are swirling ..
I have hopes and dreams, even now ..
Thank you but I don't need advice on eating or shopping ...
I hope everyone has a good and lucky Friday the 13th ...
The cats and I are doing work around the house ... As you can guess, their job is more on the keeping an eye on things and directing once in a while. It always seems to involve a food dish though.
The weather has been fine. Not too hot, no rain so far.
There is constant talk about Hurricanes and nothing has happened so far, for this I am very grateful.
I find this to be a reason for hating living here ... the threat hanging over you .. a killer storm, floods etc.
Give me some good old fashioned NY snowstorms, a summer thunderstorm .. I don't need weather drama. I like my own dramas , thank you very much.
Stay safe, enjoy your day .... what's happening this weekend ? Tell me ...
Now and then when I get tired of the heat and humidity in Florida, when I remember when I lived here before with my husband, we took a 2 week vacation to Portland, Oregon ..
It was so lovely, leaving hot and humid Florida and arriving to the cool summer temperatures of Oregon.
We rented a car and drove to the Coast ... we went to the waterfalls, there are many of them, we went to the Lookout where you could see forever .. it was all magical and beautiful and a wonderful vacation.
So as most people do, we talked and reminisced about the place ... especially in the hot humid weather of Summer in Florida ..
And then that last straw ... the Tornado warnings ... me dashing into the bathroom in the center of the house with no windows, jumping into the bathtub with a full grown Standard Poodle who thought this was great fun ... and my husband, standing in the doorway to the bathroom, laughing helplessly at me ..
We did online research .. we talked to people ... we packed up and put the dog in the car and drove to our new home in Portland..
Every day was good. Fun and pleasant. The people were very nice.
The neighborhood and our new home were very nice ... the food was wonderful and summer in Portland was perfect... that first year.
I remember it all fondly.
Today was a good day .. an interesting day to say the least ..
I take my coffee in the mornings and go out on the lanai and sip and listen and enjoy the warmth and quiet and view of the woods ... just a few feet from my home.
This morning there was a little something new added to the view.
A baby cougar, playing in the grass. With Mama watching from the edge of the woods.
They were both so beautiful and it sort of boggled my mind that there I was , at home in my pajamas, having a cup of coffee and watching a baby cougar and its mama out on the grass ..
I was still and quiet and glad the cats were sleeping in the house ..
Eventually a sound or something made the mama get up and mosey on back into the woods, with baby right behind her.
I know there are creatures in the forest ... but I never expected to see a cougar and baby ..
It was a good day ..
What a day !
I was all prepared, in my mind, for a stormy day or at least a day that threatened to look stormy.
We had bright blue skies and no clouds , dry, sunny and not too hot .. I like it !
The cats like it too ... perfect cat nap weather, lolling on the chair with mama weather, grooming one's leg for at least 15 minutes weather ... a good day.
I hear rumblings about storms and things that make a person anxious but so far no real worries .. Friends are getting ready to move back to NY .. selling a home .. with a hurricane aimed at them.
How inconvenient is that ! ?
I got an offer today .. the kind I love to get.
Someone said , come stay at my house ... I won't be there, you will have the place to yourself .. bring the cats .. no problem ...
Well, the only problem would be mine .. that place is a bit far away ...
I really want to do it ... I can go for a week or 6 months ... suddenly life has become full of choices and all of them fun .. or at least exciting ..
As luck would have it .. I have something else cooking so the offer might have to be held on to ... take a Rain Check ..
Let me get this other thing settled then we can talk about how long the cats and I can plan on being away ..
Plans .. I love making plans and having plans .. although, you know what they say .. You plan and you plan, then Life happens ...
Sometimes, going back in Time, sitting and remembering , enjoying Good Memories, is an excellent way to start the day.
No television, no radio, no newspapers .. online or elsewhere ... just sit and remember ..
My husband and I rented an apartment in Paris, just down the street from the Eiffel Tower ..
We had 10 days of wandering and shopping and exploring and pretending we actually lived there.
Our son was able to come though France on his way from Asia to the US and stayed with us for a few days .. at our "home" on the Left Bank ... lovely memories ..
There he is ... my Good Boy.
It has been a long time now, I still miss him.
There are days that I wish he was here because I get nervous being alone and there are days I miss him because he was always fun .. if a dog can be a clown, Tate was often a clown. He would wag his tail and grin like a fool when he made me laugh .. He knew exactly what he was doing.
This photo is from the short time when we lived in Florida .. a number of years ago.
Before we visited Portland, Oregon and fell in love with that city and moved there ... where Tate became a City dog ...Oh the stories that Pup could tell.
This is my new grandpuppy. Her name is Dottie .. she is a Shih Tzu .. She is lighter than my purse, lighter than my cats and about the same size as the cats.
She is precious ... an adorable baby with all the cute puppy behaviors and makes me laugh at her wiggly little squirms when she is meeting a cat or a toy .. good times..
I have been using Blogger for years now.
I have never had a problem and recommend it.
Except .... Suddenly a few weeks ago, I found that I can blog and email and do everything as usual but on the blogs .. I cannot comment unless I switch from Chrome to Safari, which I stopped using.
But it is still in the computer ..
If there is a computer wizard out there reading this, has this ever happened to you, can you guess what is wrong, can you help me ?
A couple of houses down from where I live , is The Lake.
It is peaceful and pretty and now and then you get to see an egret strolling around.
I appreciate it being there, it is pretty and yet I never actually walked over and looked at it or sat by the lake and read a book or something.
So I decided to walk over, sit down with my camera and just enjoy the quiet .. the only sound is the water sound from the fountain and an occasional jet zooming way high overhead.
I should have brought a book ...
Then I remembered .. there is always a possibility of an alligator in the lake.
They come in through the waterways that feed the lake / keep it full of water ..
So while I was sitting there, an alligator could have come over to sit beside me .. or have a bite ..
I think I will appreciate the lake from afar ... an upstairs window perhaps ... a car maybe ..
There was a dove's nest in that tree out there, we would open the windows and hear cooing.
At night, we discovered there was a doves nest under the air conditioner in the window- at night we could hear cooing .
A lot of cooing when on in our home ...
The ceilings were ridiculously high, the portero had to bring up a special high ladder so we could change a light bulb.
Strange, I have been back in the Unites States for 4 years now .. I don't feel as At Home as I did , back in Buenos Aires, at home.
Tate was there too ... funny, if I think about it ... I arrived in Buenos Aires with everything that was important to me and that I loved ... and now they are gone .
I have the cats now .. and I will move again .. I wonder if I will ever get that feeling of Feeling At Home again .. or is Home the people and things around you, not the Place ?
The cats and I are our little unit now ... I wonder how they would like Buenos Aires ....
I woke a tiny bit later this morning , cats must have worn themselves out worrying about hurricanes hitting them ... and I listened .
Nope .. not a sound .. no wind. No rain . No sirens.
The cats were snuggled in so I thought, hey, they aren't worried, why should I and I slept a little longer.
It is gorgeous out,, no clouds and the sky is an amazing blue.
I hear cars .. in the distance, people are going to work ... school ... evacuating .. it is peaceful ..
The calm before the storm ?
Or is the dread, fear and worry behind us now ? Somehow I worry that that would be too easy ..
It is hovering still ..
In other news ... I am grandmother to a new puppy.
I want this puppy . She is a Shitzu ... black with a tiny white mark ... impossible not to carry her around in your hand and kiss all the time.
I have been considering the idea of getting one for myself ... the cats would be delighted .. or not.
I need a dog to add to my pack of (3) cats like a hole in the head but hey ... no one gets to tell me what I can and cannot do .. except the landlord ... but what if I move ? yeah ..
I don't like Florida anymore. You know why.
I do love my daughter and wish she would move to NY too.
So - today is a day of online work, decision making, and phone calling. work work work ...
I hope everyone is safe and dry and free of worry and dread ... I know exactly what the dread feeling is like ... I think I have it too often for most normal people.
which might mean I am not normal.... or my circumstances need to be made more normal.. we will see.
This, btw, is my new friend Irma/Little Irma ... he/she took shelter in my plant pot by the front door .. during the storm I moved the plant to a sheltered spot and there he/she was this morning .. safe and sound and thanking me .. brave little creature, just looks at me as I look at it .. so those 2 pots now belong to her/him ..
I am Fine. The Cats are Fine..my home is fine.
Everything around me is ......Fine.
My daughter and her new too -adorable -to -be real puppy are fine.
My whole neighborhood seems to be fine .. I have to go buy groceries, I hope the store is fine.
When my husband and I moved here to Florida years and years ago, I was horrified with the Tornado warnings and Hurricanes ...
My husband laughed at me when I ran into the hall bathroom and sat in the bathtub .. the dog thought it was all great fun and jumped in with me.
Tornadoes frighten me more than Hurricanes, there is no time to evacuate and run away.
Hurricanes on the other hand are huge , destructive and include massive amounts of water ..
So imagine my delight when I heard we had a Category 5 Hurricane coming and I had no idea where to go or what to do .. I live in a condominium .. with a State forest behind me ... right behind me, it is sort of my back yard ..
I am not near an ocean or big waterway but who needs an ocean when you have a hurricane ? It brings its water with it .
And there are no hills and dales, just flat Florida.
I packed up the things that are very precious to me and stuck them here and there, places I hoped would still be intact when all was over ... and that was when it hit me.
I don't want to live like this .
I don't want a fear like that, lurking in the back of my mind every time it gets cloudy or rains a little.
I have no friends here, it isn't that sort of place ... people who have lived here for years will become friends and there is a sweet Southern way of nice and friendly but it is superficial, they don't ask you to go out shopping or anything ... they are just really nice when they talk to you for a few minutes.
So now is a time for a lot of decisions to be made and planning to be done and all kinds of Stuff.
Posting might be erratic .. there is really very little to post about, living here .. how interested is anyone in the fact that I saw an Egret walking outside ..
A turtle was rescued by Me , the Turtle Whisperer and taken back to the Forest where he made his wrong turn.
Otherwise, I am surrounded by nice strangers and beautiful skies and a forest and I might as well be on Mars for the feeling of isolation I have all the time.
So while I am able to .. I will make the next big change .. I am going home.
I went out when the storm began and dragged a huge pot with a nice big large leafed plant over into the garage from the front step.. my back will never forgive me.
I came back inside then wondered if it was in a good spot so I opened the front door and there was a tiny frog, sitting at the door.. wondering where his home went ..
I came inside and pondered ... what to do ... it would drive me crazy if I left the little frog homeless ..
I went to the garage and dragged the plant out onto the porch then pushed it across where there is a sheltered spot ..
I looked once and the little frog was still there ... confused perhaps.
I looked again a few minutes ago ... he is back in his pot .
I can relax now. No baby frog deaths on my conscience.
Merlin is taking a nap ..
Minette was stalking me .. she probably gave up. . . I am no fun.
Honey asked if there was anything left over from dinner so I gave her some roast chicken ..
Another cozy night with the cats while we wait for a Hurricane.
Things changed while I was relaxing and being glad that there would not be a direct hit from the Hurricane.
It is headed for us and I have nowhere else to go but stay here at home and tough it out.
I fear I am not very tough :(
The cats and I will hunker down, and pray that it goes by fast or decides to go somewhere else ..
Whatever happens, when it is over and when it is possible .. I will post again.
Everyone in the path of this weather, please go somewhere safe when you can .. and listen to the people that know what they are talking about.
No one can predict the weather very well or at all and certainly no one can accurately predict the path of a Hurricane very well.
What was going to be a stormy time as Irma passed close by is now going to be a very scary stormy time with Irma hitting North Florida/where I live.
The news is warning people but the truth is .. it is too late for all that.
The highways are like parking lots with the thousands of people trying to go North / Away from here ..
Stores are all closed now.
The wind has picked up .. gusty ... not too scary .. the only thing that is scary is the warnings of flooding and high winds.
I am of course terrified but I will hang on to these cats of mine and hopefully we will all make it through this alive and in one piece .. I was going to say alive and well but I am already mentally damaged from all of this.
There is no way in this world that I will remain in Florida when this is over and I am still all in once piece.
I am sure the power won't last so I will post again whenever I can.
Everyone in the same predicament, I send my love and hopes for your safety and loved ones.
Keep those pets close !! Don't let them get out or loose , odds are, they will be gone forever if you lose a pet in a storm like this.
Take care ... goodbye for now. Candice
Saturday, September 9, 2017- Jacksonville, Florida
It is grey, overcast and breezy and totally silent except for crows somewhere ...maybe they are yelling at the other crows to Fly North !!
I am here, staying home, there are others nearby and my daughter is the one that convinced me to stay home.
I would be on the road out in the open if I tried to leave now anyway .. the highways are packed with cars from here to the North .. I would rather be in my home than a car on a highway when it hits.
So wish us luck, I am anxious but not too.
This certainly did make me make some decisions that I had been dithering over .. this is not the life for me.
I will spend this time keeping busy so I don't get even more crazed, thank you so very much to S for sharing some medication that will keep my head from exploding ... or my heart ..
There are other people around me, it is not deserted here but feels like it is.
Tomorrow will be clean up and counting blessings day ..
Today I will make use of the time by packing :)
Talk to you tomorrow as long as we have electricity.
There is a Hurricane coming then I hope we will be free of Hurricane talk for a long time.
I had forgotten how anxious and threatened you can feel when a huge storm that you cannot control or run from, is on its way .. then it hits .. then the news tells you and shows you all the damage and destruction.
One of the very good reasons I had for not wanting to live in Florida again.
I never learn.
This photo is just amazing .. I have a fondness for Cloud photos. I like taking them but this one is so amazing and in black and white which I had not considered .. When our storms are over and I can feel safe stepping outside, I will give some black and white photos a try.
I hope everyone who is down here in the South stays safe and snug and dry.
We can trade Hurricane stories in a couple of weeks ... when we are over the trauma of it all.
There is a slight wind out. The air is nice ..cool .. humid ..
I was going to visit the people next door but then they had to go to a party/overnight shindig at a friends new wonderful house. Boy I wish I got those sorts of invitations ...
But they took my phone number and gave me theirs and said if I need them, they are right next door.
Which is so very precious to me.
Being alone is one thing...
Being alone in a hurricane that is kind of large and scary is another.
And of course, there is no one around that offers to keep me company .. actually, when I am this anxious, people annoy me so I am better off alone with the cats.
They don't annoy me .. well, not too much. And if I yell at them, they purr .. not many people do that ... too bad ..
So .. I am making good use of my time and nervous energy .. I am packing.
And talking to the Son and hearing about things back in the land that I should have never left ... NY.
And I wish I had some Valium . LOL
I can't listen to the weather forecasts because they scare me.
But I did a while ago so I know what is happening so far and hope that it just blows over fast and the trees stay off my roof.
I brought in all the furniture off the lanai so that won't blow around ..
Right now everything is peaceful.
Miss Honey is sleeping on a baby mattress that is now a cat bed.
Merlin is hiding .. probably in the pillows on my bed.
Minette fell asleep on the sofa .. she hates game shows.
So here we are ... the Calm Before the Storm.
I will keep busy packing and doing preps for packing and moving .. back to the Real World.
Where I can go out without getting lost ... where people remember me .. where I still have friends and family ... Florida was a mistake but I am so very lucky that I can fix that.
Now if the Hurricane just behaves and goes away quickly and quietly ...
Odds are the weather is not going to get better , not yet... it has to be horrible first.
I have never been in a real Hurricane, much less alone in one so the cats and I will probably do what will be the best thing for us to do ... Run Away.
Not sure where and when ( soon) but that is the story for now.
I will not be blogging .. unless it is something so big and lets hope to God that there is nothing that Big or Bad that needs blogging ...
If I ever had doubts about living alone in Florida ... this settled a few thoughts in my mind.
This one is on its way while the other one is still here .. The pictures from the hurricane that has hit and devastated people already , in Texas and now here come 2 more.
My first thought was pack, get the cats into the crate in the car and head North.
If I could get the movers here tomorrow, I would have the house packed up and take it all back to NY.
That is what I will be doing anyway- enough of this, living in isolation and terrified of hurricanes hitting and destroying everything I have ... me and 3 cats .. oy.
I am not quite sure how to go about things but phone calls will be made tomorrow and plans will be made tomorrow and action will be taken, starting tomorrow.
This had all the makings of being a good move, South, warmer, no snow .. but it has turned into a misery. Isolated, terrified of the weather, threatened by the weather ... totally alone every day .. thank goodness for the cats and friends and my son in NY .. they at least email and make sure I am still living and breathing ..
So I will post if there is something to say, or not until everything is over ... one way or another .
Say prayers for all the people who have been through so much already with these storms ..
I will post if there is something to say.
Right now I am panicked and feeling ridiculously alone so I have to be quiet and make lists and talk to people ... my landlord etc.
Everyone down here in the South ... take care, be safe .. everyone everywhere .. take care, be safe :)
My computer is messed up.
I don't know what I did because it seems that I do nothing different most days. I am also not that adventurous anymore on computers and other things because there is no one around who knows what to do to fix whatever it is that I messed up.
The cats are useless.
Maybe I should get a dog.
Blogger is so easy to use, I am not sure if I can be proud of myself or ashamed, that I managed to foul things up .. it seemed so simple.
So as of right now- it seems things are ok ... If this post actually posts/publishes .. we will see.
And I will tell you about my fascinating days sitting in a beautiful condo on the edge of a forest waiting to see if a Hurricane is going to hit where I live and give me more grief .. this tends to make me quite irritable.
A cranky blogger is not a good thing.
The cats and I are working on the solution to that ... there is still hope.
Have a good , safe day , free of all bad things.... which are everywhere... so we have to be careful and hang on to those we love.
Hang on tight ..
I am not actually blaming the computer, it was just sitting here minding its own business and the lady of the house ( me-guilty) decided to delete old emails and clean out trash etc.
I got a little overly zealous and something changed.
I cannot post on my own blog, using Chrome ... which is all I ever use ... Safari is on here because we used it before moving back to the US.
So I can use either one ... or I could. If I want to blog, I have to switch over to Safari .. not sure but I am not able to email either , on Gmail. I have to check that again.
So it is all very annoying and I have a short temper today and never was famous for being Patient.
So if you hear a big crash , that might be my computer going out the window.
Most likely you will just hear a lot of whining and grumbling.
So don't worry if everything goes silent on here ... I am fine, the computer had better watch out.
My husband died a couple of years ago. We were together every minute that we could be, since we met that day in NYC in 1970.
It has been a long and difficult time for me to adjust to the many many things that a single person who mostly feels like they are from another planet has to learn .. and do ... and manage.
Ordinary things that most people know early- I did not learn .. I learned things but the things that he was used to dealing with, he continued to deal with and I was blissfully able to Not Worry.
That was his mantra... Don't Worry, and so I tried not to and most everything was alright.
I moved to Florida .. I was glad that I would have family, my Mom to be around, to catch up on things with, to be around her and just talk .. she died a couple of weeks after I moved here.
I am feeling stronger and better able to manage on my own. Although I constantly fear I will forget something Important .. I have help sometimes with some things and I am lucky to have fantastic people who do things for me so I can't manage to ruin everything.
Last night I got an email.
My Aunt had died, suddenly. She was the baby in the family. My mom was the oldest child ..
In a couple of years, I have lost my husband, my mother and now my aunt ..
I think this is the dark side of aging .. those you love grow old too ... and they go away.
Leaving you behind with so many memories, so many good times and so many tears.
I am going to take a break .. I have always wanted to be entertaining when I blog, when I told my stories about Buenos Aires and even moving back to NY .. but lately there has not been much to talk about, unless you are fascinated with my accounts of silly cat tricks and scary weather forecasts.
Someone made a snide remark to me about wrapping myself in grief ... ok ... Yes, she intended to be hurtful, she has her own problems , but it made me think that I might not be aware of how other people feel about reading what I write, when I am sad. So this is a good time for a break.
I will be around, I might drop a little note but right now I need to set my life into the right gear and head it in a new direction .. South has been nice .. but North might be nicer ..
Sending you all love, thank you so much for reading my blog, for commenting, for sending me emails and generally becoming friends with this madwoman with cats ...
I cannot tell you how touched I have been by some of your notes to me and thank you so much for tips on how to manage when the world as you know it just disappeared ..
I would not have been able to be even near sane without the help of my friends .. all of you .. online, in phone calls and emails .. you were there when I needed someone.
There were people who for some reason pretended to be my friends, but those kind of people don't last .. and I have been left with You .. the sweet, kind, thoughtful people that I have never met in real life but who behave the way Real Friends should ... Thank you Thank you Thank you ..
My Spam has gotten more interesting .. not only do I get the usual offers to hook me up with gorgeous women ... ( I have no idea) ...or offering me specials in holidays , bargain shopping and today ... I got an email about my taxes due ... in Brazil.
I never did get to go to Brazil.
We talked about it but we were having so much fun in Buenos Aires, we were so happy there, we put off trips farther away .... like Brazil... where I have never been ... or owe taxes...
I worry about money. I don't care how many times all kinds of people tell me I don't have to .. I do.
Now I have to worry about Brazil.
(not really .. I am not that nutty ... yet )
So the sky was blue and pretty, it is now solid clouds ... and there is no air, no breeze at all.
Tonight we are getting storms, winds and buckets of rain.
I would much rather be worried about how many feet of snow will fall than how much rain will fall.
So how has your Monday been ?
Light hearted ....
Minnette, the little girl, who rarely makes a sound, has learned to howl.
Yes, that little blue girl sounds like something in a 1950's Horror movie.
Honey, the triple plus size kitty, has a little baby girl meow.. totally charming.
Merlin ... purrs really loud ... makes funny ack ack noises at me if I annoy him, if I keep it up, he will smack me ... with no claws.
If I annoy Minette, she lets me have it, claws and all. . meow ..
I will keep busy this week .. preparing for my future .. What are you doing ?
Honey takes a nap
**I have been told the Spam comes from me using online websites for shopping **
I had to share this, it totally gave me the giggles.
Today has been one of those "lucky" days, I guess you could call it. An ordinary Monday for me, cleaning up around the house, going to the supermarket with a list this time .. although there is enough cat food in the cupboard to last until next year .. I always worry about running out .. so I go overboard.
I went to the big supermarket and bought food, no cleaning products, no paper products, just food.
Last shopping, I came home and when it was time for dinner, there was nothing to et .. but I had enough paper towels to last a flood and cat food. I should buy stock in cat food.
I went to the market, did all my food shopping and went out to the car. The man parked next to me said something and we chatted a moment .. then I got into the car .. he said something else and I stopped to hear him .... behind me a car was pulling out of a space and another car hit her.
The man stopping me, I feel , saved me from being in a car crash in the parking lot.
I scurried home.
The skies turned blue/black .. very low and menacing. I was very glad I lived nearby and the garage is connected to the townhouse.. I walked in the house, opened the doors to the lanai, the cats ran out to nap and the skies opened up.
We all dashed back inside and now .. the blue sky is back.
So it was sort of one of those missed the bad stuff by a minute kind of days ... so far ...
I am staying in .. let it rain. ( Adele)
I have plans to make ... plotting to do ... information to get ... balls to start rolling ...
I was thinking about the things that have happened since my husband died. The changes are huge.
From one home to another ... from one state/part of the country to another ! Living in a totally different environment ... being more isolated than I ever was in New York .. and Managing.
If for no other reason, I am proud of myself for managing.
Let's just hope I manage to get this next adventure well planned and accomplished..
Taken on our drive when we moved from Florida to Portland Oregon. I think this was Utah but won't swear to it ..
My husband and I with our Standard Poodle Tate, in a BMW, flying down the highway, over hills and dales ...The weather was good the entire trip, we stayed in La Quinta Inns every night ( dogs are welcome) and listened to a lot of good music.
And there was not one day of rain, nothing bad happened, we arrived in Portland and stayed in the Hotel Monaco, a Kimpton Hotel. There are so many fabulous hotels in Portland !
We stayed at the hotel while we looked for our new home .. we rented an apartment in a building that had just been completed. It was perfect .. everything about it.
The trip was perfect too. The car was good, the company was good ( my husband was a very good driver and liked to drive fast ) .. we saw cowboys and horses and mountains and rivers and a whole lot of very nice people along the way. It was a lovely time in our lives and I am happy I remember it all. ( although these days I can say I am happy I remember ....)
We are going to get another storm .. ho hum.
I went to the supermarket and bought enough for a family of 4. Not counting the cats.
I felt like going for a drive but not sure where and there was some disturbance in a part of the city where someone was shot and police were there and a riot or curfew or something might happen.
I am better off here behind the gates with the cats.
I had a fun shopping time in the grocery store.
I shopped as if I was 12 or 13 ... soda, brownies, rolls and fresh Southern fried chicken and all kinds of junk ... if you must be trapped in the house with bad weather, at least be able to be a piggy ..
I made a mattress/comforter lounge in here, so the cats and I can lie down and watch movies online.
It should be interesting .. Honey takes up most of the mattress.Minette will have to lie on top of me as I teeter on the edge.
Any good suggestions for rainy weekend viewing, just let me know.
I wish Life had a DELETE Button and a BLOCK Button .
You just never know when you will need one and they are so good to have .
Spam mail - Delete
An email from an idiot - Delete & Block.
Easy peasy ..
So onto the Fun Button of the day ...
My tooth broke ... I am not in pain but there is a dentist visit in my future.
It was grey and gloomy and relaxing and quiet ... until the tooth broke and the idiot emailed me.
Cats have been napping, seriously napping .. I should have napped more and stayed off the computer.
The weekend is here. Every day for me is sort of a weekend day ... except Sundays when things are closed, they are all the same.
Now there won't be a dentist working either .. oh joy.
Onto more cheerful stuff ...
Minette does not have a toothache.
Merlin loses teeth because he is so old but he still managed to gain weight which makes me so happy.
When I got him he was so very thin and light. Now he has heft to him .. he isn't so fragile feeling ..
And then there is Honey .. Honey has all the heft you could ask for.
She is a Big Girl. with a tiny girl meow and I still laugh when I hear her.
They have been informed ... yes, I told them to Come here and sit down, I have something to tell you.
and they looked at each other, shrugged their shoulders and sat down ... Merlin lay down .. seconds later, Merlin snored.
I told them we are going to pack and go back home to New York.
Honey raised her paw ...
I said, "Yes Honey"?
She wanted to know when dinner would be ready.
Merlin got more comfortable and snored a little.
Minette went back outside to be a Lookout for the Great Gecko Catching Contest.
Little does she know there are no geckos within her reach .. they might be lizards but they aren't that stupid..
So that is Friday at my house ...
I know, you wonder how I manage to deal with so much excitement .. it is a secret.
I have posted this before I think but I am posting it again .
This is called a Murmuration.
This was the first time I had ever heard of such a thing or seen anything like it.
It is magical and wonderful and breathtaking.
So one afternoon in the house in New York, I heard birds outside in the trees.
Seemed like a lot of them going by the sound ...
I walked out to the edge of the property and there were the farm fields ( corn) stretched for miles up the hill and out of sight ..
And in the sky but coming from the farm fields was a cloud of Starlings ..
I got to see my own Murmuration .. and most of them settled in the trees on my property when they were finished ... finished amazing me and enchanting me and making me feel like I saw something so very special .. miraculous in its way ... just imagine standing alone, a tiny human under a huge dark cloud of birds .. magical doesn't describe it .. but close enough ..
It has been grey and gloomy here with not much to do except make plans and lists. Other than that, the cats and I have been perfecting our Nap expertise ... the cats win so far but I am getting much better at it ... but then, there is always someone who is better ... even when wearing a scarf.
It is a cool cloudy grey day ... a fall day .. or a dreary summer day .. it is actually pleasant.
No a/c running, the wall of sliding doors downstairs is open to let in Fresh Air and there is no sound but wind in a pine tree forest and the occasional Navy Jet, rumbling over or now and then ... one goes screaming straight up ... exciting. Even if you aren't the only person on the planet and have not spoken to anyone this week besides the grocery store clerk.
But you know what ? I can't remember when the small talk with a grocery store / or any store clerk, was anything but Pleasant .. so I will not belittle that being my only source of chats this week.
Better than hour long phone calls talking about how awful the stupid people are that one works with, or what bad drivers everyone else is ...
You know what I mean, there are some people who just have nothing to say unless it is to gossip or complain.
I, on the other hand, can be depended on to talk about .... fashion, make up, Sephora and cats.
That my dears, is a sign of a good conversationalist . lol.
My cell phone is apparently Full.
Full of photos.
So it keeps telling me I cannot do this or that.
These photos have been downloaded into the computer, I just have to figure out how to take them all out of the phone. I did a small amount and the phone still tells me I can't come in :(
If anyone out there knows how to do things like this- please do feel free to email me or post here and tell me what to do and how.
Wow .. it is only 10 am and I have been so busy ... I just did some Computer Housekeeping.
As in cleaning out all those dusty old files and a gazillion emails that I saved, thinking I would want to read them again one day, not feeling good about the idea of lost forever in the internet.
But then I realized, I haven't looked at them since I read them the first time.
So there was major computer house cleaning this am and it is still early... yay for me.
In about an hour, I will be looking for something and then realize, I deleted it Forever.
I like that ... DELETE FOREVER.
That was especially satisfying for those emails from people who for whatever sick reasons they had, courted me, flattered me, emailed me , even sent me things in the real mail ... then slammed me with insults and rejection.
There are people who bored me or bothered me in some way that I didn't want to hear from but I have never actually told them why ... I don't tell people why ... I don't want to be mean to them ,.
If they were to ever email or ask why the silence ? I would make up an excuse, I don't hate them, I just wanted to not hear from them, to discontinue contact.
Funny- one person had 2 college kids .. one , the daughter, was the Golden child. The son, who seemed to be the favorite from all the gushing I read .. became an alcoholic and broke his parents hearts.
I was always sympathetic and tried to be practical and sensible, not to be gushy or make excuses for anyone.
I was dropped like a hot potato the first time I said something without lots of Poor You and Oh How Unfair Life Is ... then proceeded to actually Try To Be Helpful but sending her a list of things to be Happy about.
She totally hated that and insulted me and left the room.
After I finished laughing at how odd people really are, I shut the door firmly behind her.
So she and a few others like that , ... all went into the garbage bin ... if only this happened in real life ... deleted forever.
So now I am in the First Stage of the New Life of Me By Myself .. with cats.
So far I think I have done ok .. the next big step includes another move .. and I want to visit Buenos Aires again so there are lots of things to think about and plan.
This is all ..... a Good Thing ...
Wishing you a Good Week and Lots of Good "Stuff " .. food, movies, trips, weather and family.
It is a perfect day to spend in the house with the cats.
They just like to nap whatever the weather, today it is cozy inside .. napping cats, National Geographic on television and the laundry going.
I noticed when I came up stairs that wherever Honey is and whatever she is doing, she will haul herself up and follow me. When I go wherever it is I am going, she will soon be curled up in the room with me .. She is a Mama's Girl.
Minette is my little warrior .. I wish I was as brave as that tiny blue cat.
Merlin ... Merlin is a lover. He just looks good and snuggles and purrs.. there is no need for him to do anything more.
It is pouring down rain and very cozy inside with no a/c on, that is a treat !
I am going to read a new mystery I downloaded to Kindle ... make lists for packing, etc and proceed with the plans for the Future.
Home sweet home. In Argentina.
It was like a dream, being in Buenos Aires, having a home similar to many in France as well as being able to furnish it just the way I wanted to. Most things were ours but we bought the sofa there and brought along our antique lamps and this and that.
The living room faced the street, the back of the apartment where our bedroom was located faced the back ... which was also the gardens and backs of the other buildings so we slept in a quiet peaceful room with views of sky and doves nesting outside the windows. Cooing woke me each morning.
Sometimes, it seems like it was all a dream. Everything about it was lovely, we were so happy, we were all together .. Pup, my husband and I ..
I am so glad I am always taking photos of everything .. now that I am the only one left, I can remember by going through the photos ... Memories ... sad happy wonderful memories.
When I met my husband I was just 21 .. he was older. I was a girl from NC by way of California and he was born and raised in NYC .. although he spent quite a lot of time living in London and India.
I was living in California, came to NYC on a visit, met my husband the first couple of days in the city and we were married a couple of months later.
So I spent half my life so far with my husband... I picked up phrases he used and little ways of doing and saying things.
He was really smart and very well traveled and sophisticated.
We were a perfect couple and I am not sure why ... old souls perhaps .. but we were so very happy.
I lived with him for many years, from the young age of early 20s ... I picked up many of his ways of thinking about things ( a good thing) and his ways of saying things ( a funny thing) and mostly just his way of not taking some things so seriously ( a very good thing if you can manage it)...
I grew up with him.. in all ways .. and I try to think of how he would manage something if I am just flummoxed by a particular behavior or something someone says to me ... I like to think that I have kept my sense of humor, although that seems to be the problem.
So many people take every single thing so seriously. Of course, to them it probably is serious but it seems that people expect everyone else to be distressed, worried, angry over someone else's problem.
I have learned about this the Hard Way.
The most recent being yesterday when I took a persons comments to be humorous.
BEEEG mistake. This is someone who has known me for a very long time ( online) and I was there for them through some pretty sad days ... days when this person was reeling from the death of a spouse. Having had a bit of that experience myself .. I try to be aware of how such a loss can change a persons personality.
For me ... it made me less likely to think before I speak.
It made me want to make someone laugh rather than moan and groan and be dreary .. nothing makes people run for the exit than a dreary widow ... or so I have been told.
Yes... one of the things that gets lost is the ability to be polite or kind in other people and the complete lack of a sense of humor.
So someone I know (for years) who has been through the same issues (loss etc) said something in an email that was just so sad and yet there was this one thing that was said that made me feel that this person was feeling worse because this person is drinking .... too much.
I would never say anything .. that is on that list of easy ways to lose a friend.
But then, what do you think happened ? I spoke frankly without being silly or fluffy about something and I was immediately criticized and dropped ... no more friend.
It is a good thing I have 3 cats. They always like it when I talk to them, they never judge and they never walk out on me.
I try to listen to them but they don't expect much, love and kindness generally do the trick.
Unlike some people who pretend to be "friends" ...
I think I want to be a cat ... when I die I will come back as a well fed cat .. with long claws ..
You can sort of get an idea why this place is so great ... artists are encouraged, musicians, graffiti , dancers, you can see it all, on the street, here or there ... and as you walk down the street, you hear music, in shops, restaurants, cars ... one of my favorite memories is having to go across town for some final paperwork for our residency ..
We got a taxi with a driver with a fabulous voice.
He sang along to every song on the radio.
We were so entertained, it was enchanting .. this was the taxi ride that I judged all others by ..
Walking down the sidewalk, sitting at a traffic light, always looking out the windows, looking at the buildings .. art everywhere .. music... I sure do miss it ~
Now you can see another side to Minette ... the kitten that just plays until she collapses.
I know, she looks like she had One too many ... but it was all cat games and running up and down a staircase .. terrorizing a senior cat who mostly looked at her and went back to sleep.
But even Honey who is not slim kitty, bounded after Minette. Who beats us all with energy levels.
Now it is kitty nap time.
If I was a meanie, I would run the vacuum now.
But instead, I think I will do something exciting like the laundry.
Once upon a time there was this tiny blue kitten, whose mama was just too tired so she lay down in the snow and fell asleep. She was wrapped around her baby to protect her .. some human was walking in the snow and imagine their surprise when they found the tiny baby curled up next to her dead mama.
He rushed the kitten to Animalkind in Hudson NY where the vets and the wonderful people who work there, tirelessly, kept that tiny blue baby alive.
One day this lady walked in o the place.
She was newly widowed and very sad and lonely.
She had been thinking about getting a cat but her grief made her unable to do more than think about it, acting on it seemed such an exhausting proposition.
But one day, she had just enough energy to drive over and go inside.
The people there knew her from her previous visits and they were always so kind.
She walked in and there was one lady at the desk and the place was silent and no cats to be seen.
I walked over to the desk and said there are no cats ?
And she smiled at me and looked behind me .... I turned around and there was this tiny blue kitten, stalking me. I picked her up and she began to purr.
We both fell in love. At first sight.
I brought her home with me and the two of us slept together and ate together and she acted like she cared when I talked to her and she told me how she missed her Mama and I told her how I missed my husband and the two of us helped mend our broken hearts.
Not what you ordinarily think of when you picture Alaska, is it ?
Beautiful, aren't they ?
I have a friend who lives in Alaska, which happens to be where a few of my family live and used to live.I have cousins here and there, from Alaska.. it is a shame I have never gone there ..
And here I am in Florida, there are no Poppies growing around me but there is a forest behind me.
This morning, as I stood there in the lanai, with my first cup of coffee, the cats and I waking up and enjoying the not too hot sunshine, the silence of the forest ...
I glanced at Minette who was staring hard at the bird feeder next door .... the birds are so happy and busy and drive Minette crazy.
But this was not a bird. This did make Minette a little crazy though .. a baby racoon.
I was a little crazy too.
It is official, there is nothing as cute as a baby racoon .. trying to find its way inside a bird feeder.
Mama came along and took him back to the woods.
Which made me glad ... Humans are dangerous.
I am appreciating the woods .. the cats are appreciating the warm sun on the lanai ..... What are you appreciating ?
The Alvear Hotel Bar, if you want Posh .. here you have it.
My husband and I walked all over Buenos Aires, we lived in Recoleta and wandered the neighborhoods, going through the miles of parks into the museums and other areas, Palermo Botanico which was next door to Recoleta.
At the end of a day of walking and talking and shopping and looking, he loved to sit at the bar at the Alvear Hotel and sip a glass of very good Malbec.
I sometimes drank something sparkling but mostly not .. I am plagued with a condition that is really not fair to anyone .. I get an instant headache from alcohol, especially wine. Apparently there are Things in wine that cause an allergic reaction .. sinuses close up, head aches ..
It is generally not worth it ... then I found out that vodka rarely does that .. lol ... so I had a lovely Bloody Mary in the Alvear Hotel Bar ..
There were days it was fun to sit at the bar but mostly we sat at a table and had a snack too.
And people watched .. British musicians, singers, actors ... it seemed to be the Hotel of Choice.
We should have stayed there one night, just to see how it compared to the other luxury hotels we had been in ..
so here you have it ... if you want Posh and you need a hotel, The Alvear Hotel, Buenos Aires, Argentina.
It is a very hot day in Florida and storms are forecast. This is Summer.
The photo is a warm day in Buenos Aires ... that is Spring.
Here, it is always green. In Buenos Aires, Spring was looked forward to, the colors of all the flowers and the trees and walking in warm sunshine without a coat .. much like anywhere but Florida, I don't think they ever need coats in Florida.
I wish I was back in BA .
Sunshine, napping cats, blue skies with huge clouds , very warm but not too bad ... air conditioning runs night and day.
Birds are very busy in the woods in back. Large and small and all vocal and busy.
Cats are slothful .. each napping in their favorite spot .. after a couple of hours, a little movement then a new spot to nap in for a few more hours.
My little adventurer keeps watch ..
Boy do I miss that room.
The windows were the french door style... looking out onto the "air" space behind all the buildings ... the room was very quiet. I would wake in the morning and look way up there and watch the light twinkling on the crystals in the chandelier ..
My husband bought me flowers every week .. there were always some in the bedroom .
A typical 1930s apartment building, marble hall floors, cage elevator, marble staircase winding up around the elevator .. 2 apartments to each floor .. so the living room looked out over the front, the sidewalks and 4 lane "boulevard " .. it was One way when we moved there, they made it 2 way traffic after a couple of years, we never noticed it being that much noisier .. the bedroom in the back was silent. Except in the mornings when the doves would wake up .. they slept in our a/c unit by the window.
I had a doves nest in the window box outside the kitchen .. baby doves .. ugly little fragile things.. but they lived !
Funny, I look at this place I am living in now, the house we lived in when we came back to the US .. the furniture has fit and looked good / or made the rooms look good ... in all the places.
Maybe it is time to try a new place with new rooms to try things out in :)
Hurricanes make beautiful skies.
We are not having a storm , at least not yet, hopefully not at all, but the skies were gorgeous today.
Sunset just showed it off more ... the clouds look solid, as if they could be walked on ...
The cats and I had a totally lazy day.
It is their fault, they are teaching me to live like a cat ...
*Don't get all fussed over things,
*Don't worry, Eat and Sleep then Eat andTake a Nap .. Bath, Nap, Eat , I did it all.
I am relaxed and now we are all going to bed ... to Sleep. .
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I made all kinds of plans, sitting downstairs having coffee, watching the cats decide where to get the best nap in the sun spot .. which sadly for them was non existent, no sun today, although it is quite warm, there is a storm on the way.
I got panicky, then realized there is plenty of food and no warnings to worry about or be worried by .. it will just be a summer storm and I am staying home and being lazy.
It's the cats fault, their laziness is contagious.
Soon I will be fascinated by a string hanging on a door .. or that stuffed toy on the chair..
I have some good books to choose from, I will read and nap and have pasta and salmon for dinner.
My day is all planned .. I have the music picked out ... listen ...
When you have no job , no appointments to keep, when there is no one besides a couple of cats to feed and the weather is nice every day ...One sort of loses their concept of time and space .... a little bit like a Star Trek episode.
I wake up to the same sounds .. lack of ... to the same little warm bodies ( unless Honey chased everyone else away) then there is just one very large soft cozy body ... in my own bed, in a lovely bedroom, in a beautiful 2 story condo that is at least as large as my last house.
And a similar view of forests and green lawns with a bird or two.
Hummingbirds , stork-like birds, tiny tiny birds that sing and sing ... buzzards floating overhead sometimes, making me remember those scenes in old Westerns in the movies, desert, heat, buzzards circling a dead cow ..
Now and then, there is a sound, that I can't explain, but it makes me drop what I am doing, run to the lanai and look Up !
And there go the jets from the Naval Base .. sometimes almost straight up .. sometimes just loud and (silly me) thrilling ..
I never hear traffic. I never hear other people talking , I heard a dog bark maybe twice. There is a man who walks a collie, the collie is small and insane. Beautiful but totally insane.
It barks as it walks. Not upset, not aggressive, just mad as a hatter.
And the owner has no clue as to how to walk a dog that barks down a street of homes .. when there are people who might be sleeping or just not wanting to hear his poor insane dog bark.
I had forgotten what it was that made Florida hard on me the last time I lived here, Jacksonville anyway... it all looks exactly the same.
Flat, development after development .. same architecture, same trees and churches and buildings..
So I find it a challenge to not get lost when there is no "landmark" to go by when finding my way back home.
Right about the time I am ready to leave here, I will know the way around.
Lucky for me, the highway is not far away .. I can't get lost, getting to the highway headed North .
We are in some sort of storm watch.
It is super humid and very warm and very still .. not a breath of air, not a hint of a breeze .. the cats are preparing for their morning naps.
I am tempted to join them.
But instead, I might do a bit of Online Shopping.
The websites that are my current favorites are ....